Bethlehem’s Cross

Is it not strange, the darkest hour

That ever dawned on sinful earth

Should touch the heart with softer power

For comfort than an angel’s mirth?

That to the Cross the mourner’s eye should turn

Sooner than where the stars of Christmas burn?

[John Keble 1792-1866, The Christian Year, exerpt from the poem “Good Friday”, Public Domain]

This time of year always compells me toward contemplating the wonders of the Cross.  This section of Keble’s poem asks the question why we don’t look more to the cross and less to manger and Bethlehem.  In my own life I want to do practical things to make the Ressurection day celebration more meaningful.  I desire to change the Christmas holiday to become subservient to the real holiday–the demonstration of God’s love and Jesus’ unabashed obedience.  Christmas is empty without the Cross.  Christmas is a curse without the Cross.  Christmas is everything its critics claim it to be without the Cross.

O, for such excitement over Resurrection Day!  Shall I give gifts?  Send cards?  Get up early with my children and run to the empty “grave”? Will I unwrap the brightly colored gifts You leave scattered all around by the power of Your Holy Spirit?

Lord give us wisdom, capture our imaginations, allow us to see past the beginning to the power of the Advent, the resurrection of the only begotten Son of God.

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Anxious Days

“Cast your burden upon the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken.” (Psalm 55.22, NASB)

Of the many spiritual challenges I have to grown into, the casting of anxiety has got to be one of the most challenging. I have a terrible time casting my anxieties, my burdens, my cares on the Lord (and at least leaving them there). If I get them to him I often want to (and do) take them back.

“Care, even though exercised upon legitimate objects, if carried to excess, has in it the nature of sin. The precept [instruction] to avoid anxious care is earnestly inculcated [taught as if by command] by our Saviour, again and again; it is reiterated by the apostles; and it is one which cannot be neglected without involving transgression [sin]: for the very essence of anxious care is the imagining that we are wiser than God, and the thrusting ourselves into his place to do for him that which he has undertaken to do for us.”

Spurgeon, C. H. (2006). Morning and evening : Daily readings (Complete and unabridged; New modern edition.) (May 26 AM). Peabody, MA: Hendrickson Publishers.

Spurgeon speaks the truth, those who “do not cast” fall into sin.

Lord, in this day of anxiety, cause my cares to be cast upon you.  Give me strength to leave them there.

The psalmist says that “he will never allow the righteous to be shaken.” What a promise this is; what an incentive to be among the righteous in this day full of anxiety!

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The God Who Sees

“The LORD looks down from heaven, he sees all the children of man; from where he sits enthroned he looks out on all the inhabitants of the earth, he who fashions the hearts of of them all and observes all their deeds.” (Psalm 33.13-15, ESV)

This God who sees everyone is not aloof and disconnected.  For instance, consider the story contained in Numbers 22-24. There the blessings of Balaam of Beor are kept for all to read and remember. In that narrative God sees what Balak and Balaam are doing and he causes (either by inspiration or by lack of countermand) Balaam to bless Israel. Perhaps the most scandalous piece of the narrative is 23:21 when the I AM is said to see nothing but good in Israel (so to speak).

The only way for God to see nothing but good is if the I AM were looking at Israel from above the mercy seat; the sin of Israel being covered by the blood of sacrifice.  He sees and he acts, not from “on high” but at our level.  He acts to bless and not to curse.  The God who sees surely must have known that his love sonnet of blessing would be returned with a note, “Left you, gone to serve Baal of Peor” (see Numbers 25).  How incredible is it that God would stoop to bless such an unworthy people?

How great indeed to serve a God who not only “sees” but stoops.  He stoops to love, to bless, to serve, to comfort, to give, to encourage, to order (our way), to provide; even then he abdicates none of the sovereignty I rely upon to see me into eternity with Him.

How wonderful is His way and how unfathomable are the riches of His grace to us–to me–this God who sees and yet stoops to those he knows can never deserve it!

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The Wrath of a Sovereign God

“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.  Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from the wrath of God through Him.”  (Romans 5.8-9, NASB95, emphasis added)

I think that we have lost the sense of God’s terrible aspect which in turn has limited our understanding of His infinite mercy, of His boundless love. What blessings we have missed in not knowing our Savior first as Sovereign Lord then as Abba Father.

I thank God that I was taught this truth early in my spiritual journey. More and more each day I see the  abject condition of my own heart. Some sins new, some old, some realized, some untold. More and more I need the gentle shepherd and am grateful that I am not under the judgment of the dread Lord.

I aspire to something much more that what I am, even to what I could be if I were relieved of all encumbrances. I aspire to the One who knows me best, who will, in the end, claim me by the immensity of His own grace and the power of His own acts of love. O what inexplicable joy it is to be called a child of God, to be rescued from the sure wrath to come!

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Stomped-Day 5

I have been kept away from the blog for a long time, unable to get to this day, day 5.  It was the most important time I spent in Uganda.  I am by nature an extremely private person.  I am forced to be transparent by my responsibility to be a teacher of God’s Word (both in action and speech) but I still keep certain places very close to my heart and I share those spaces only when forced or when privacy is simply not attainable.  I don’t have “secrets” per se, but having lived in a “glass house” now for nearly fourteen years, I am even more protective of those places in my life where access is either limited or denied.

I have already spoken of Isaac.  We have been separated by my responsibilities in country now for several days, but this day we set aside to spend together and for me to meet Penninah and Lionnel.  I was both excited for and dreading this day.  I am a inherently skeptical person, who also is insufferably given to think the best of people.  The two incongruous personality traits create almost a constant war within.  I so wanted Isaac to be “for real” and yet a incessant nagging of “this is all a big scam” kept my insides upside down.  We had a little difficulty meeting up with Isaac, but in the end we climbed into Richard’s car and made the trek to Jinja.

Mark and Isaac and I had plenty of time to talk along the way, so I asked as many questions as I could about his life, the culture, industry…everything.  The day was warm and the car loud, so conversation was more difficult especially since Isaac’s vocabulary is not yet extensive.  Isaac was kind enough to point out landmarks on the way and let us know what was growing alongside the road.

The land was verdant, the farms were extensive and the people were few.  We drove through a couple of “towns” but it was mostly just rolling hills of sugar cane and matooki plants.

A Good Snapshot of the Terrain Between Kampala and Jinja

A Good Snapshot of the Terrain Between Kampala and Jinja

The closer we got to Jinja the more apprehensive I became.  Jinja is a much different kind of town than Kampala.  It is much more orderly, and gives more of the appearance of an old American “country town,” maybe somewhere off of route 66 (like Tucumcari, for instance).  Isaac’s home, was very much home to me even though I was a “first timer.”

A Typical Street in Jinja

A Typical Street in Jinja

We negotiated the sidestreet to the place he had rented for his family.  It took a few minutes longer than it should to get to the place due to a chicken crossing the road along with its newly hatched chicks (I am NOT making this up).  Isaac’s place was one room with two beds, an electric hot plate and a small anteroom with a porcelin tub, commode and sink.  VERY nice by Ugandan standards.

Pretty much the whole place...Lionnel on his bed

Pretty much the whole place...Lionnel on his bed

Lionnel and Penninah were both there and excited to see us.  It was surreal.  They had nothing really to show me, but they wanted me to see everything.  I distributed the gifts I had brought along with the gifts that my friends Tami and Nancy had sent and we had Christmas in May.

Lionnel showed me how he makes beads using strips of paper and Isaac explained the process they go through to go from concept to finished product.  A couple of day’s work making necklaces would yield for them $10US at best.  Lionnel is the strong silent type and just sat quietly as “Penny” prattled on about things and showed me all her “glamour pics” she had made while she was still in school.  I was overwhelmed.

Part of the day was devoted to helping Isaac plan out his finances, so I decided I would take Lionnel and Penny out to lunch and then buy them some new shoes (the ones I had brought with me were too small).  We went back into town and ate and then went to Bata to purchase some shoes.  They kept thanking me again and again for these simple gifts.

We went back to the place and Mark and Isaac went to lunch.  I told Mark to order the fish since my chicken tasted like fish anyway.  Mark took a picture of his lunch.  Needless to say that he didn’t prefer to order it again and I don’t think he will trust me about food anytime soon.

A Good Reason Why Mark Won't Trust Me Again

A Good Reason Why Mark Won't Trust Me Again!

The day was much too short.  We had to be back into Kampala at a reasonable time for our driver, and so we gathered around in a circle.  I “adopted” Isaac, Penninah and Lionnel with Mark and Richard as witnesses.  We all cried and Isaac prayed to God and offered thanks for being “lifted from the dust and given a family.” We prayed some more and then loaded back into the car.  It was the most difficult moment of the entire trip.

We travelled from Jinja a little further north to Isaac’s family plot of land.

Mark and Isaac at Isaac's Homestead

Mark and Isaac at Isaac

He owns about a half acre and leases it free of charge to a family that resides adjacent to the land he owns.  We got to see the Nile and took pictures courtesy of a very nice army official who waived the rules when he found out I was a pastor (long story).

The Nile from above the Jinja Rapids

The Nile from above the Jinja Rapids

We arrived back to Emmaus house after dark and I finished my day trying to deal with the sorrow in my heart over having to leave my “kids” in Uganda.  I want so much for them to come and live with my family here, but they would leave as much as they could gain and since they are older (16, 18, 23) the complications of getting visas will be immense.  I still seek God’s will concerning this as I miss them tremendously and just am not sure as to what is best for them.

Lionnel, Isaac, Penninah

Lionnel, Isaac, Penninah

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Another Visual Work

I hate it that I am not able to share more of my own experience with you.  The press of my daily responsibilities suck the life out of my ability to write.  I am so excited to share about my own three children in Uganda and actually wrote a lengthy post that was trashed during a computer crash.

So until I can get it together, enjoy this video produced by a young lady who visited Uganda and who, like me, carries the experience deep in her heart.

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